Not Good Enough

My love is never good enough,
For one girl or the next,
No matter how much I have,
I always receive that apologetic turndown text.
Maybe they don’t understand how much it hurts,
How I have to live with the pain,
Maybe they don’t know what depression feels like,
The lack of dopamine in the brain.
I literally lack the happy,
I literally lack the chemical that makes one smile,
But I can’t fix it,
I’ve been without it for a while.
I’d treat her like a princess,
If she’d just let me be her prince,
But instead they look away,
And make a hissing noise and wince.
Cause I’m like a toxic compound,
Sickly to the touch,
They keep their distance,
They don’t talk to me much.
I used to be pissed at them,
But now I hate myself,
That’s why my heart’s in a jar,
Up on the top shelf.
Cause it doesn’t do me any good,
Hasn’t beaten in a year,
Wherever I am,
They’d rather be anywhere than here.
Sorry I’m not good enough,
That my love is a sin,
They don’t care where I’ll be,
Or where I’ve been.
Cause I don’t matter to them,
Invisible to the eye,
I can do nothing about it,
Except just wondering why.