SilenceConrad629

embers glow, drifting from a flame long faded. there’s nothing left but shards and pieces, a broken man, jaded. it was good before, great for a while. but maybe I’m lying. maybe it’s denial. remember when we smiled together, while we talked and laughed for hours? wanted to scream my love for you from all the highest towers. it felt soft, warm, full of life. it felt to me like you’d make the perfect wife. we were a fireplace, sharing our warmth with family and friends. guess I should’ve remembered that every good thing ends. couldn’t break my habits, couldn’t stop the loop. knew I’d fall and make you hurt, knew I’d somehow stoop so low, so low, that you’d have to leave me behind. knew I’d end up pushing you away, and you repaid me in kind. knew that it’d happen, ‘cause I’d blown it in the past. knew that in my life, nothing good can ever last. still love you like I always have, like I always will. but I was enough to make you sick, to say you’d had your fill. our embers drift from a

empty eyes and a pale face, whose tears form the rain. moments lost in empty space, whose laughter turned to pain. loving, living at our own pace. we’d rather lose than race. the winter months were warm with you, like hot chocolate by the fireplace. cuddling, kissing, our slow, gentle pace. your lithe hands fit right into mine, we were puzzle pieces long thought forgotten. used to think love was sick, festering and rotten. remember when you cried in front of me for the first time, when your walls came crashing down. when you would’ve collapsed if I hadn’t held you up, when your sobs shook the town. you shook, you sobbed, but you never let go. you knew I wouldn’t leave you. do you still know? you worked my tears out of me, wrung me out like an old washrag. with years of agony beneath my belt, and plenty of dark secrets in my bag. but for a while, you stayed. held me like I held you. you stayed, you listened to everything I had to tell you. but it became too much to bear, too much weight

empty bottles buried beneath a sea of flowers dead. memories like tractor beams, pulling happiness from my head. remember what we were, girl? remember who we were? kept hoping you’d second guess yourself, kept hoping you weren’t sure. seems everything with us was final, though, well, except “us” anyway. no redoes, no runbacks, no quarters left to play. standing beneath this blue sky with the cool breeze on my face. wish it was enough to dry my tears or whisk me out of this place. just waiting to break down and cry in front of a dear friend or two, humiliated, defeated, and desperate for you. but the brightest stars die first, so we were never meant to last. forever loving you and hating myself, no matter how much time has passed.